The Felonious PhD.

White Collar Female PhD. Felon, Prison Camp, Re-Entry, Criminal Justice Reform. Women, Lesbian

Getting to The Core, Part 6……..Putting The Pieces Back Together

on August 12, 2015

The question that I have been asked continuously since receiving my release date of September 8, 2015 is “Are you nervous?”   My immediate response has been, “No not really, I am still just moving through the process”.   As I make myself consciously aware of that question and the feelings I am having about leaving the incarceration phase of this journey, I don’t think nervous is what I am experiencing.   I have started thinking about all of the things that I have to do to put the pieces of my foundation back together for myself and my son, who will be 16 years old on September 15, 2015.  I keep reminding myself that I must continue to just use patience as I strategize and plan for our next.  In reality I will still be under the auspice of the Federal Bureau of Prisons and will have limited freedoms until my Free date which is March 6, 2016.

My logical self completely understands that I will not be able to fully repair, piece together everything that I once had.  I am aware of the fact that I must focus mainly on meeting our basic needs and build on a foundation to sustain my son and I as we continue onward.   My mother soulful self has such a sense of urgency to get life going so that my teenaged son will have every possible, positive opportunity to launch productively into college and his own life.  The mother soul in me is ready to get this going and prepared to do whatever it takes to reunify expeditiously with my son and our life.

I am remaining mindful that the process of putting the pieces of our lives back together is going to be challenging.  At the same time I feel like it is going to be a period where I will reconnect with my son as he transitions into young adulthood.  I truly understand and accept the fact that our lives may not look as it once did prior to this crisis.   However, I am encouraged and prepared to actively strive for us both to enter into our NEW and NEXT positively, passionately and with a new purpose.

All in all, I am not afraid, I am a bit anxious, but I am fearlessly prepared to move onward to the halfway house as I move through the Federal Criminal justice System.   The pieces of my life are most definitely fragmented, scattered, and jagged but they are not broken beyond repair.  I am ready for next!  I am thankful that I was born and raised to be who and where I am at any given moment.   I am also grateful that I will be with my son soon.  I am not finished yet.

The journey continues……………………………………………the felonious phd. 3/2015

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