The Felonious PhD.

White Collar Female PhD. Felon, Prison Camp, Re-Entry, Criminal Justice Reform. Women, Lesbian

Getting to the CORE (5)…………………..A note from my Mother-Self!

on March 15, 2015

As I slowly transition into the latter phase of this Federal Criminal Justice process and being incarcerated, I challenge myself to remain positive, mindful, connected, peaceful, honest and productive so that I will leave this unnatural and inhumane environment the best ME possible. I also continue to remain aware of the fact that I have to encourage my 15 year old son, who is without his mom, to do the very same thing. I will never lose sight of the fact that his life was also impacted over the past 5 years. Even though this has been my personal journey, he has been forced to participate in a parallel journey of his own and I will remain mindful of that fact.

As I assist him by email and 15 minute interval phone calls, with maneuvering and strategizing himself through high school, teenage angst and other developmental milestones, I can hear a level of growth in him that brings a smile to my heart. At the same time I feel the big-little young man that just needs a hug and kiss goodnight. I get it! I know he misses me and I miss him. I am also acutely aware of the fact that I, as his mother have the pleasure of making his life a little easier, to help him to navigate through to young adulthood and on to adulthood. I plan to continue to do that with pride and a new level of parental awareness. What I have learned about being his mom, through this process, is that he can and always does find a way to do the things he is supposed to do. He also embodies the ability to overcome, and is just as resilient and capable as I am.

When I return home I will continue to remind my son that we are not VICTIMS, we are not what happens to us and even when we don’t have a certain amount of control over what happens to us, we can damn sure control how we react and act to what happens to us. I have never been comfortable in the victim role. No matter how disappointed I am in our American Criminal Justice System I will continue to push myself and my son to be our very best always!!!!!!!!!! I have to diligently instill in him that we are the catalyst for change so that HE will NOT become a part of this system that I so despise.

I am thankful for my Sonny! I am so lucky to have raised such a loving, caring young man. I am also thankful for his older brother for stepping in and making sure he continues on the right path till I return home. I can not wait to be home and be his mom!!!

I love you Sonny!

The journey continues………….Felonious Ph.D. 3/2015

2 responses to “Getting to the CORE (5)…………………..A note from my Mother-Self!

  1. mark says:

    I Love you Sis! You and Sonny are always welcome with us and we have a guest room just waiting. Love in Christ 4-Ever & Always, Mark

  2. mllarose2000 says:

    Aww! I continue to be inspired by your strength. Your spirit is strong. Please remember they cannot take your soul. Prayers and blessings to you and all women in the camp.

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