The Felonious PhD.

White Collar Female PhD. Felon, Prison Camp, Re-Entry, Criminal Justice Reform. Women, Lesbian

A New Year…

on January 15, 2014

2014 has arrived and I am forced to accept that this year is going to be much different for me.  I am astounded by my feelings that although I am currently incarcerated in a Federal Prison Camp being guarded by yellow lines around the grounds tho serve as a reminder that I cannot go anywhere that I want to go, this year is still full of possibilities for me and every other mother, lover, sister, aunt, wife, grandma, and friend in here.

During a discussion I had with my bunkee, she unselfishly told me that I have re-inspired her!  I quickly became humble and quiet.  She followed that with, “Your presence is inspiring.”  Then she went on to explain how she too had lost her hard-earned business, homes, car, and livelihood, and gained a 10 year sentence for invisible money.  I told her that from what I have grasped from this experience, up this point, is that we have to refuse to be subjugated by this system.  I then heard my good friend’s voice in my head saying, “A year from now, things will look different.  Just get through the year.”  My roommate has hit her year of being incarcerated and I can feel how she wants to hold firm to the sacred possibilities.  so, if my presence serves as a spark for her I am thankful.

I have always been a humble-silent leader who loves to lead from behind.  I am changing that for my next phase of life.  I am going to live the duration of my life Godly, fearlessly, and lovingly.  What more can be done to me?  I feel exhilarated by the possibilities for the new year and the years to come.

Happy New Year!  Live it Fearlessly!

 

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One response to “A New Year…

  1. mllarose2000 says:

    Remember that quote? “I will not die an unlived life. I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open me, to make me less afraid, more accessible, to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise. I choose to risk my significance; to live so that which came to me as seed goes to the next as blossom and that which came to me as blossom, goes on as fruit.” Dawna Markova.

    This is you Dr. Little. This is who you are. No one, no system can take that part of you away.

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